trigger warning: pregnancy loss/miscarriage
Nadine's Story, Nadine Nesbitt
'I think about pregnancy constantly. The only way I thought I could heal from this loss was to be pregnant again. But it's Covid-times. Covid-times when your partner is an essential worker means waiting for the endless waves to be over before attempting to try again. It was Covid-times while I was pregnant too, maybe it was the stress of it all. In the weeks after my pregnancy loss, I was so incredibly isolated. A combination of physical distancing, the next looming lockdown, and no understanding of if my experience was normal - I began to write. And then one day, I shared my story on social media. I'd been so alone in my experience, until I shared what I'd been though. The response was overwhelming. Women - many of whom I am friends with, began opening up about their losses and their trials. And it made me so angry. Why don't we talk about this. Why are women left in the dark. I know it's incredibly personal but knowing I wasn't the only one - in fact, I was one of every four women - made my situation just a little more bearable. Community helped me heal. Community during Covid-times, shared experience during pregnancy loss, there are simply no words to write the gratitude for that.'